A Little Out of Order

I wrote this as we got on the plane Thursday, so it's a little out of order from my other posts or el posts:

6-15-17 8:24am CLT

Am I nervous you ask?  Yeah. Sure. I don't know what to expect out of Cuba, and you know what?  That's ok.  It really is ok.  I have 37 years of experience to prove that things will be ok. I've learned a ton about fear lately and how it affects me if I buy into it and decide to hold on to it/run away from it.  The more I run from it, the larger it seems.   The more I run into it, the more I realize that it was never really there in the first place.  Fear is an interesting thing in that way.  It's not really real unless I believe that it is.  Right now, in this moment, I'm feeling pretty good about it.  I'm a little anxious, sure.  But, am I fearful?  Not at all.  There's actually some freedom in not knowing what to expect out of this trip.  

Expectations are something I've learned about recently.  I have expectations for a lot of things in my life in both my personal and professional lives.  Most of the time those expectations aren't met.  Does that mean I shouldn't have expectations? I don't think that's the case or at least that's not what I'm choosing to believe right now.  What I'm choosing to believe is that it's ok to have expectations and I can be ok when those expectations aren't met.  Now, there are some steps and processes that I can go through from expectations to being ok, steps like anger, disappointment, etc. But once I work through those, I can let it go.  I think it's ok to want good things out of life(expect good things).  The difference here is that I don't have to EXPECT that things will be like I want just because I expect them to happen.  I'll need to work for things, and that's ok too.  And just because I work for them doesn't mean that I'll get them.  I can only give my best effort and believe that life will be good even though life may not turn out the way I believe it will.  

I do believe there's a power greater than myself at work in my life right now.  And He takes care of me.  All I need to do is just show up.  Kamal Ravikant says that there is an extremely small amount of fears that are actually life threatening.  The others are fears can be walked into, or run into, and when I do either or, I can't describe to you how much better I feel.  Just pushing through that deep, dark feeling I get in my gut when I'm fearful makes that feeling go away.  

¿Why am I posting content like this on my travel blog?  Execellente pregunta.  I truthfully just started writing and it all came out.  So yeah.  That's why.  Thanks for asking though.  

Sent from my iPhone